Thursday, February 15, 2007, 12:03 AM
So it's been about a month since the last posting and I certainly hope that everyone thinks this blog is shut down so I can blog covertly.
It's about 5 mins after valentine's day, and I wont say how I spent it. People have ways of finding out even if you don't tell them anything anyway.
In regards to relationships, you once said that a broken glass cannot be mended to the way it was before. I was defiant and disagreed. Well, you're right, I admit that now.
For me, the difficulty in trusting another human being is so immense. But you gained it in the end.
You chose to break that trust, time and time again, slowly. And stage by stage it deteriorated.
My trust in you was like that glass. And now it is broken.
It can't ever be the same.
I was naive to think that it could.
For all the times you made me the happiest.
You also possessed the power to make me feel the lousiest.
For all the sweet little gestures that lifted my spirits.
There were also the ones which hurt the most.
For all the promises you fulfilled.
There were more that you did not.
For the times when you said you loved me.
There were the times your actions proved otherwise.
For all the lovely memories that you brought me.
There were the nightmares that remained.
You were both my greatest love and darkest fear.
Today you gave me a Hallmark.
It said the most beautiful things...
That I wish I could believe.
I simply don't trust you anymore.
Simplified.
You hurt too fucking much.
Because I loved you too much.
let’s doodle
