Beautiful Stranger

2009-03-04T17:24:00.002+08:00

OMG.
I'm in the budget terminal w Pris now.
And the funniest thing just happened.

She turned to me...
and very confidently said,
"Terimah Kasih is thank you,
Sawadee-ka is hello right?"

....
"Terimah Kasih is Malay."

LOL

Reminds me of another time,
when we were also in Thailand,
and she said something damn funny
but I can't remember what.

Oh wait.
I think she said Sawadee-ka to someone who thanked her.

2009-02-16T12:47:00.002+08:00

I CANT WAIT TO GO PHUKET!
POOOOOO KATTTTT
with my lil peachie!
Peachie!
Bitchy Peachie!
...
Okay kidding.

But I really am going pookat!
Yayness.
And for the first time I've actually managed to book everything!
All by myself.
Yayness.
And PHI PHI ISLAND!
Hope its gonna be a blast =)

Regrets awashing now,
of what could have been.
But it's never good to let it overwhelm you,
never good to let it stick with you,
and weigh you down.

Only fools let past overtake the present.

2009-01-21T13:44:00.002+08:00

Midnight.
Obama's Inauguration.

I watched him take the oath.
stumbling a little over the words.
But never losing that confidence,
charming smile,
and great posture.

The man is a leader no doubt about that.

I watched him give his speech.
A speech lasting 15mins.
At least.
And not once did he falter,
nor refer to anything remotely looking like notes.

He looked at his fellow citizens,
and simply spoke.

With so much conviction and passion,
that I was sure,
touched not only the 2 million in the vicinity,
but also,
the millions more around their country.

And not forgetting, the billions around the world.

Wish I could have watched it with my loved one.

2009-01-20T14:28:00.003+08:00

The last few weeks/months of not updating are over!
I'd forgotten my password so I couldn't update hee hee
Sorry folks!

It's been a rough start to the year,
Despair, sadness, frustration, envy,
all abounding.
But life goes on eh?
Maybe it won't get better this day, month or year.
Maybe never?
But what the hell,
just going to live it.
Cos nothing's going to change if you don't.

About the team, well, what can I say?
TP Wolves managed to win top of their table,
But they've lost the fight for 1st and 2nd placing.
They came so far, fought so hard all the way,
won every match, and I think it got to them.

You have nothing to lose.

Forget about winning four matches and losing one.
Forget about the medal placements,
about the statistics and rankings.
Forget about everything,
Just think of sticks and balls. (floorball kind yeah?)
It's a game.

On thursday,
It's going to be just another game.
Not THE last game.
Not THE medal-deciding game.
Not THE game where you've played and beaten them before.

Take it
one minute at a time,
one line change at a time,
one pass at a time,
one dribble at a time,
one save at a time,
one shot at a time.

Just another game.
And you've got nothing to lose.
So give it your best shot.

2008-09-15T09:59:00.000+08:00

MORE MOVIES TO ADD!

Wall-E
Boy A
Forgetting Sarah Marshall

So that makes it 70 movies!

I hate it when people show my secondary school photos.
BLOODY IRRITATING,
cos I hate the whole look back then.
eeeeyer.
Cant even bear to look at my own pictures.
SO STOP IT!

2008-08-21T09:53:00.002+08:00

I love 98.7FM's AM MAYHEM!
Sometimes its just the small things
that make your day a little brighter.

I hate Don and Drew's segments though.
Like...WTF?

Speaking of expletives,
Jade Seah...sigh...the worse choice ever.
Kenneth Liang (executive vice-president of Ch 5's programming and production) said:
"(Jade) may not have the mileage of a seasoned presenter but she brings to her delivery a fresh appeal."
........
........
There is no appeal, Mr Liang.
Wake up.

I do feel sorry for her though.
I understand how stressful it must be.
And that's why,
the fault is not hers,
but that of the person who casted her.

2008-08-19T13:51:00.003+08:00

POOR BABY has shingles........
GET WELL SOON!

I havent seen some of my friends in a long time...

No Country For Old Men
is such a good book.
And I don't think I'm just saying that,
based on the excellent reviews.

3km.
and plenty of other stuff!

I exercise to EAT!

2008-08-07T11:03:00.002+08:00

well, a very unfortunate incident happened yesterday during my virginal visit to the Manhattan Fish Market restaurant. They somehow managed to swap mine and another customer's card during billing.

the result?

my poor mastercard has been rendered useless and i missed 10mins of my movie! I absolutely fucking hate missing the opening of a movie.. AND I HAVE NO MASTERCARD WAAHHHHHHH!

shall proceed to check my card and bills very carefully from now on.

on another note,
Mayang Sari here we come!

And on yet another note,
Sentosa here we come!

And on a last note,
we have added "Bad Habits" to our movie list!

2008-08-06T10:58:00.002+08:00

10 000 bc
13 tzameti
27 dresses
300
881
across the universe
august rush
bee movie
blades of glory
blood and chocolate
bridge to terabithia
cars
coach carter
enchanted
evening
fracture
freedom writers
fingersmith
gladiator
hairspray
hard candy
harold and kumar 2
harry potter 5
horton
hunting and gathering
i am legend
in einem jahr mit 13 monden
into the wild
iron man
jesus camp
juno
kal ho naa ho
lars and the real girl
le grand chef
national treasure 2
paris jetaime
pirates of the carribean 3
p.s. i love you
ratatouille
rendition
rush hour 3
saving face
sex and the city
shrek 3
speed racer
spiderman 3
stardust
step up 2
stranger than fiction
transformers
the chronicles of narnia - prince caspian
the darjeeling limited
the forbidden kingdom
the golden compass
the other boelyn girl
the savages
the simpsons movie
the warlords
there will be blood
waterboys
what happens in vegas

and more titles!

hancock
get smart
wanted
hellboy
batman - the dark knight
under the same moon (which i must say is super duper excellent!!!)

and the total is.....
*drumroll*

67 movies!

2008-07-22T22:03:00.001+08:00

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

I'm lucky to have you =)

2008-07-22T14:54:00.002+08:00

So I've finally come out of 15 years of education to be a contributing member of society. And it's not all fun and games. Plus, it's really not that hard to be an adult. No wonder there are many angsty teenagers who inflict physical harm on themselves and well, normal working drinking adults. In this particular production house, we're on PC editing mode. Which sucks because Premiere's not exactly my best friend and I've never been acquainted with After Effects before. But that's beside the main point, which is that the computers are so old they can be my grandmother. or grandfather.

And today was sposed to be a RELAXED day but it isnt! Some things just aren't followed according to plan. I think sometimes it'd be much better to follow the SOP.

=(

2008-06-17T12:10:00.002+08:00

Facebook keeps sending me
emails abt how my Owner is
Petting me.

Hmmmm.
I'm a friendster person.

Firstly,
Who are you?

Secondly,
Stop petting me!

-
Pris says:
aww u soooo cutte like a doggie
Pris says:
pet pet pet

2008-06-16T10:29:00.002+08:00

Good friends are there for you.
They share your burden,
and hear your troubles out.

But if you don't protect them,
from being dragged into the mess,
then you're not being
A good friend.

2008-06-11T10:47:00.001+08:00

A long lost friend
I've never seen or heard from
in abt 3 years.

Her sister passed away,
late last year.

I wonder if she could have used
another friend at that time.

2008-06-08T00:03:00.002+08:00

Lately,
I've been having Strange dreams.

And mind you,
a dream itself -
rare occurence for me.

Is it possible to read dreams?
Is it connected to life?
I wonder.

Crazy moods,
what I've been experiencing lately,
too.

What's wrong?

I think I know the cure.
Time to make lists.

Why?

Cos lists make you feel safe.
Planned.
Ready.
Sane.

But life just isn't always so predictable.
Or plan-nable.

I want a red teacup maltipoo!
And call it Teddy Bear.

2008-06-04T10:20:00.001+08:00

We've added two more titles to that list!

The Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian

AND

Sex And The City.

Which is very very good I might add...

That brings the total to 61 movies watched by you and me!

=D

2008-05-25T21:50:00.003+08:00

10 000 bc
13 tzameti
27 dresses
300
881
across the universe
august rush
bee movie
blades of glory
blood and chocolate
bridge to terabithia
cars
coach carter
enchanted
evening
fracture
freedom writers
fingersmith
gladiator
hairspray
hard candy
harold and kumar 2
harry potter 5
horton
hunting and gathering
i am legend
in einem jahr mit 13 monden
into the wild
iron man
jesus camp
juno
kal ho naa ho
lars and the real girl
le grand chef
national treasure 2
paris jetaime
pirates of the carribean 3
p.s. i love you
ratatouille
rendition
rush hour 3
saving face
shrek 3
speed racer
spiderman 3
stardust
step up 2
stranger than fiction
transformers
the darjeeling limited
the forbidden kingdom
the golden compass
the other boelyn girl
the savages
the simpsons movie
the warlords
there will be blood
waterboys
what happens in vegas

59 movies watched by
both your eyes and mine!

2008-05-23T11:25:00.001+08:00

Amazed and rejuvenated.

Indiana Jones later with Japanese Marche!

and Broccoli and Cheddar Soup!

2008-05-20T20:31:00.002+08:00

OH MY FUCK.

Today I signed Mr Confidentiality.
A contract for 6 mths.
Assistant editor.

Today,
I also got,
another job offer!

WTF?

I really thought my first interviewee
wouldn't be calling me back.
I mean,
c'mon,
more than three weeks??
But today...sigh..
I applied for EDITOR!!

Guess it's not fated.

Well at least I have....
TZENI JILL STELLA JEANETTE
for company at Hoe Siang Road

Though I would have loved to
expand my sights at MB.
Bummer..

Surprise surprises..

I feel really above cleaning toilets now.
=)

Graduation tml..
I don't have a hat!
Don't you need one of those square
headgear to throw up in the air
after you're done?

2008-05-12T23:18:00.001+08:00

I think I should be in uni.

I think I should be overseas?

I think I should be anywhere but here.

What is the point of life really?

2008-05-05T14:59:00.002+08:00

I love Tommy Knox's version of No One
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NYfyR3Sot1k

I love Boyce Avenue covers.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6UIaJclKV3Y&feature=user
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgG_4Akt9vM&feature=user

And I loved Marie Digby first!!
But too bad...
No Gap tickets for me.
=(

Today I did something productive.
I mopped my whole house.
And it was clean...
for a while.
now it's sandy again.
Why!

I made my lil baby muji dance just now.
He was adorable.
He looks like he has a double eyelid.
Is it possible for hamsters
to have double eyelids?
He's my lil shuffler.
I'm a proud parent.
=))

Iron Man later!!

Harold and Kumar-ed with the gf and Patrina.
Hello Pat I know you're reading this!
I love Harold and Kumar!!
"Nice pubes."

I fear I may be a burden
to the society of Singapore.

But I went fishing,
does fishing count as productive?
I've realised the "fishing clique"
is pretty male-dominated,
and some don't like ppl in their turf.
Well I say...
FUCK YOU.
I hope the fish you eat poisons you.
And I caught a catfish k
neh neh neh.

I think I've gone off fishing for now,
especially after I realised I caught
a baby garoupa!
It was so small...
so wasted.
=(

But then again,
it could have grown up so big,
led a fulfilled life,
and eventually end up on someone else's
plate when it's put on 20 more kilos.

Life's never fair.

2008-04-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

" Hi Janice:
Would love to have a chat with you.
Can you come to our offices on April 23 at 3.30pm?
Look forward to meeting you.
Have a great day! "

OMG. Fuck.
This was sent on the 20th.
This was seen on the 27th.
One week later.
Just Now.

It looks like a really fun company...
I really hope I still get a chance eh?

And I was pacing about ready to share it with you.
But...
It's the fourth time now?
If this is God's will,
maybe it's for the best.

One movie I loved and cried at,
was the Butterfly Effect.
Certain things don't happen/ happen for a reason.
We can't change fate,
or play God.

I don't go to church now,
but I believe he exists.
I have an idea of him.
A perfect one,
and no other human being will
be allowed to p(r)itch him to me,
in another way.
It works out this way,
for now.

I'm sorry for everything.
And you deserve much more.
Much more than I can give.
Much more than I am.

With everything you're going through,
I'm still here for a friend,
if you wish.

I don't know where to go from here.

Is life supposed to feel this
l o s t?

2008-04-16T15:04:00.002+08:00

fate is not working with me. just when I thought i'd shift over to my computer to do my resume cos my laptop doesn't have word document anymore, I find out that the enter button on this computer's keyboard, is spoilt. Hence, no new paragraph. Why life why? You miserable son of a bitch with no stable income. YOU WONT EVEN LET ME MAKE A NEW PARAGRAPH! chee bye

2008-04-04T14:51:00.002+08:00

In the relationship tick-boxes,
they only have:

single.
attached.
married.

They don't have:

friends with benefits.
dating exes.
confused.

so...
which one do I tick now?

Omg I actually have to rent a robe,
for graduation ceremony?
Barf.
I don't see why it's a tradition,
to all look like Harry Potter,
with funny hats,
to ascertain
that we're done with tertiary education.

The Evening Standard is right!
Adrian Mole does make me feel better off!
Trouble is,
He's fiction.
I'm non.

I wonder if I kept a diary,
would I be as famous as Sue Townsend?

Probably not.
No one wants to read about Singaporeans.
Everyone except us thinks that we're a speck.

Which brings me to Horton!
I loved it =D
And we loved KATIE most of all!
Jo Jo was kinda cute toooo

2008-04-02T00:44:00.002+08:00

It's really not easy,
calling it quits over the phone,
with practically your entire family in the room.

Where do we go from here?

2008-03-28T16:11:00.002+08:00

It's over yay it wasn't too bad at all!
=D

It's time to give away the lil baby hamsters...
having to part with them,
reluctance.

Imagine how a mother would be feeling...
I wanna just pet her and tell her that,
everything's gonna be alright.

=(

2008-03-15T16:09:00.002+08:00

The juniors did a really great job for our Mediabiz Awards..
Real talented bunch!
So thanks for the effort =)

I can't wait till the 17th =)

I can't wait till the 21st =)

I really can't wait till after the 27th =)

Can't wait can't wait!

And after that,
serious job hunting time..

2008-03-14T17:30:00.002+08:00

oh my fuck.

-_- sian.
Changes again.
-_- sian.

Take me somewhere else faraway.

2008-03-09T20:04:00.003+08:00

A great summary of everything since the last post that I can remember -

1) On the 1st of march, seven pink little-widdle baby hamsters were born!
Only one fact marred the occasion: we thought we had two male hamsters. Ball-ball must have gotten pregnant cos that was the only way to show us that she indeed was penis-less. How frustrating it must have been to be called "boy" for three months.

2) ______ is marred. Fullstop. I don't know how to save this falling piece of shit that has caused me so many other wasted opportunities. It's causing me plenty of stress I assure you. Bloody MedioCre Pte Ltd.

3) I have proudly inherited a Minolta x-300. And as of 5pm this evening, figured out how to open the compartment for the batteries, and the film...all with the help of an online manual! People of ancient times are very sneaky indeed.

4) I wanna be a chef but I doubt anyone would hire a pint-sized mass-communications diploma holder.

5) I wanna be a photographer but I doubt anyone would hire a pint-sized mass-communications diploma holder with an old mouldy camera.

6) I wanna be a film-maker but...who doesn't?

7) Baby hamsters have started to grow fur! Adorable...

8) Job scope looks bleak.

9) Girlfriend is one of top sales-person at IT show!

10) Job scope looks really bleak. Starts to wonder if life is becoming one of those...
Will i grow old alone in a 1 room flat in smelly Whampoa-something?

11) Why can't I live the life of the rich and famous?

12) Oh right. I'm 1.54m.

13) I can probably make a fortune singing and dancing as one of Santa's elves!

14) Renewed hope for life.

edit:

15) Realises that Christmas comes only once a year.

16) Falls back into depression.

2008-02-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

it's the little things that makes a laugh.

Comic timing,
What's that?

Clever lines,
What's that?

Slapstick,
What's that?

Laughing is the easiest.
when
Comedy is the hardest.

2008-02-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

ah fuck.
feel like shit.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
can't wait till the weekends

2008-02-12T17:31:00.000+08:00

"I am the corner which no one looks at."

It's less than 3 days to the end of school.
Minus one exam paper.
A sudden jab of adrenaline,
to leave something behind,
that will matter.

makes you think,
have you made an impact?

makes you think,
will you be missed?

makes you think,
will you be remembered?

What...
makes you think,
that you mattered?

2008-02-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

NahBeh.

Where art thou phone?
Why can I not hear ye ringtone?
Why art no one answering?
What have I done to deserve such?
If no one answers, how do I find thee!

NahBeh.

Return me my phone!
NOW!

Please?
It's chinese new year..
*does goo-goo eyes*
*starts to tear*

I shall haunt you with endless calls.
til 1pm tmr.

Pick up pick up.

2008-02-04T15:32:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm stuck.
Pls don't do this to me now.
Think Think Think.

Beep.
Brain not functioning.
Repeat.
Brain not functioning.

2008-01-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

I wish i could go back to the days of writing compositions.
Like in secondary school!

Those narratives full of impulse and flow.
The way you start off with something and don't stop,
till you realise you've reached two pages.
Got minimum word count mah.

And a sense of accomplishment no matter the grade.

No technique.
Just imagination.
Put to paper.
Every glide of the pen sails the story in a new direction.

Propelling forward, pushing forward.
Hardly moving back.

Because liquid paper cost more
than just a tap of the delete button.

2008-01-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

This town is colder now,
I think it's sick of us.

you're all just another one.
you and you and you and...
oh drummer girl,
trust I have in thee.

Planner,
not executor?

Less than a month to graduating!

What then?

Stop and stare.
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere.

2008-01-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

I miss you..
It's the first day of 2008, and I shouldn't be holed up here trying helplessly to meet deadlines. Trying to put effort into stuff that from a year's time, probably won't matter at all to me.
This is stupid.
Should a grade even matter that much? An alphabet based on ONE person's opinion.
A - good.
B - ok.
C - you suck.
There there.

2007-12-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

Poor Thing got bullied at camp =(

but...

she DID start on the pranks first.
tsk tsk..
lil miss cheeky.

Original prankster la la la.

Team Green!
The Art of Caterpillars!
wiggle wiggle wiggles!

Tan Hui Hui
I can't make you feel better (unfortunately),
but for what its worth (hopefully),
I thought you really improved alot =)
i wished you could play for ivp.

We're here for you caterpillar

2007-12-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

What's the point really?

2007-12-15T03:01:00.000+08:00

wheeee!
apples and pairs have been featured on deviantArt!
=)

Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium is really good!
I...cried.
yes, i'm a wuss.
My girl's the real man.
=D
I = tak man.

time time time wait for me!
can't wait for school to end,
but when it does in 11 weeks time,

what then?

2007-12-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

My parents would rather bring over the ugliest, most useless clothes to "make rags", than to bring over a toaster.

a toaster.
that toastes stuff you know?
Reheats stuff?
They didnt want to bring it over because it was "too bulky".

We're in a new hse now.
It's all foreign to me.

This whole episode is despairing.
Really despairing.

I like having space to myself.
I like having my own space.
Myspace.

I havent had a room all to myself for 19 years.
But I have had my little corner. My Bed, my table etc.

Now I have no bed. No Table.
I have
4 plastic containers
1 luggage bag.
That's all.
That's what I can call mine.
And that's what I'm keeping together,
trying to create my own little space,
right at the corner of a room.

Because I really really really need my own space.
Even if its just a corner.
I need something.

Because its all so
depressing,
despairing,
frustrating,
tiring.

And so,
to a certain "uncle sam".
I'd really appreciate it if you stop adding to my woes,
with your "concerns" and snooping around.
It seems to me that you're trying to create something out of nothing.
You may care for the team,
but you're not a player,
and you're not at every training etc.

I am at trainings.
I've got 8/10 for trainings,
congratulate me.
I'm there,
not because I want to,
not because I love it!.

So don't drag me into anything behind my back,
especially when now,
Im just minding my own business,
playing my own game.

Talk is overrated.

Ellen has wise words,
Just Do It.

2007-11-29T17:20:00.001+08:00

muahahahahaa!
i accidentally found my way in here.
i shall blog like janice.
she blogs this way, doesnt she?
i guess.

- Obi wan.

2007-11-24T12:05:00.000+08:00

This semester is crazy i swear.

School is demanding in so many areas,
and there's change going about.
After this coming Friday,
no longer will I be able to say
"I stay at East Coast".

It saddens me.

And I feel like withdrawing from everything
just to make it pause for a while.

2007-11-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

Wednesday was great =))
I had a very perfect dinner
with my very perfect girl.
And passed the midnight,
sharing an amazing view
on top of our world.

I thought Wednesday was
the only great day I would have.
Then,
Friday (aka today) came along.
Friday was awesome =D

We went to Aston's Prime,
and sat at a table for two.
She had to visit a friend,
working there on attachment.

I believed.

She got up,
and talked to the manager.
We shifted to a table for four.
She claimed the previous table,
was reserved already.

I believed.

The waiter added one more set,
of cutlery.
Me = Wtf? Why add?
She blah-ed her way through.

I suspected.

"Who else is coming?
Your family issit!?"
I freaked.
She "admitted".

I believed.

Charlotte appeared.
Me = "oh coincidence!"
Until...
Liting....
and Sarah...
followed.

Me = WTF ...realisation... OMG!

So there we were,
Two of us with three,
of my best friends. =)

You're magic,
and this is the sweetest lie ever,
and I'm so proud of you =))))))

Thank you baby,
for making my 19th birthday,
a most memorable,
most enjoyable one.

2007-11-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

If you're by my side,
When everyday begins
I'll fall for you again

Yellowcard with "Dear Bobbie"

2007-11-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

So I've officially inherited my father's SLR.

Yes, DSLR without the D.

I think it's pretty cool, I havent found out if its still usable but it'll make a good decorative piece anyway.

My family.
Dysfunctional I love.

2007-11-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

A Fresh Start. Or something I've finally gotten down to doing. =)

Is it "ALOT" or "A LOT"?
I learnt it in school and we were made to memorise it cos my teacher got real fed-up with the mistakes we made, but I still mix it up.

Anyway, Alot/ A Lot has changed and I don't feel the same. =(

Here's a video Vicnan and I did over the weekend for the FlyByNight Challenge 07:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qyow0e-dmc

It's a cute one called Apples and Pairs.
I dedicate it to my Little Miss Late.

2007-09-02T11:58:00.000+08:00

I want to laugh for nothing,
laugh at everything,
just laugh.
Not one of those fake hur hurs,
that you give to people
with wrong comic timing,
with lame jokes,
with quips you don't understand,
that you give to pressure (peer mostly),
that you let out, out of tiredness,
that you let out, simply to signal the end of a conversation.

I want a genuine laugh.
I want a HAHA!
Not a hur.hur.
I want a HAHAHAHA damn it.

I want to be 19,
not 2-something.

2007-09-02T11:33:00.000+08:00

I have too much on my mind.

No wait, sorry,

I have too much going on at the same time,
on my mind.

4 more weeks to the end of internship la la la~

2007-08-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

Actually,
all i wish is
that i can come home
to you

2007-07-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

Oh well.
its fate.
its un-fortune.

Again.

Here's a real sense of hopelessness.

2007-07-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

2007-07-16T16:12:00.000+08:00

ohhhh....
everything is average nowadays..lalala

My blog is a pit of mould and decay.

You should avoid this stale pile of shit.

Work's a bitch.
And I'm tired.

2007-06-17T03:25:00.001+08:00

It's a weird feeling.

2007-06-12T16:14:00.000+08:00

the thoughts of without you are not far.

2007-06-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

swoosh swoosh swoosh it's all out.

breathe in exhale inhale exhale.
breathe breathe breathe.
it makes you lighter.
makes your head spin a lil.
you're a walking zombie.
but it's better than being a mess.

I found a perfect spot for me.

I talked to God,
and he sent me the tiniest raindrop,
to let me know that I was going to be ok.

I need a break from EVERYTHING.
I can't exactly pinpoint it.
When could I ever?
So I've just pointed my finger at EVERYTHING.

EVERY SINGLE DAMN FUCKING THING.
INCLUDING ME.
I HATE YOU which is ME.

I'd like to tell you that I hate what you've become.
I'd like to tell me that I hate what I've become.

I honestly think so.
You think so?
I think so too.
And I think I'll tell you soon.

2007-06-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,
it lunges out of me,
and I can't control it.
Sometimes I don't bother,
other times,
I don't care.
Or perhaps,
I'm just too tired to.

Sometimes,
I'm in a "fuck this" kinda mood.
Other times,
I'm nice.

When I'm at my worst,
I vent it on you.
Knowingly.
And I'm sorry.

It's like something just taking over.
Making you feel really lost,
confused,
unsure and irritated,
sad even.
All in one.

But no matter what,
you seem to always be there,
or you try anyway =)
Thank you for you.

For reassuring me,
at the end of the day,

that I've got someone on my side,
to fight the world head on with.

that I've got someone,
who gives me all the comfort I need.

that I've got someone who,
wakes up early to wish me thru the day.

I got someone,
I got you.
And that's all that matters.

2007-06-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

'good morning, good morning, to you, and you, and you.
wake up lil shrekkie!
wake up wake up wake up
i love youuu
*muacks*'

=)

2007-05-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

It's been super long, I don't even know where to start.
Starting for some, is as hard as stopping.

At the moment,
I do menuboards with Barney.
They're the 15secs "trailers"
that you see on TV.
The one that has "celebs" (quote and unquote)
on the side,
doing stupid things like
ahem..pouring tea that doesn't run out,
ahem..going to the toilet.
???
They're the ones where,
the voiceover speaks real fast,
cos there's only so much to say
in such a short while.
It's pretty fun.

Amongst other stuff.

The age gap is so fucking big.
I'm like the youngest.
-_-
You can feel the generation gap sometimes.
It can get pretty...weird?
yeah...
COME BACK TO ME MY PEERS!
hahaha...

Promises are meant to be broken.
You didn't promise me anything,
you didn't have to apologise.
Bad luck happens to good people,
You can care,
but you can't take care.
Not anymore,
since a while back.
But you're still my dad.
=)

Curly curly I like.

I'm so glad for tomorrow.
I really need a break...
TO GO SHOPPING!
Wheeee....
I got work OT k.

I was a merlion for 30secs.
It was pretty fun.
=D

You're my Comfortable.

2007-05-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

Thank you baby for making this my day.
=)

New additions to the wardrobe,
new damage to the bank account.

And I'm here for you.

Stone soup,
and foxtrot,
both had the same strip topic yst.

So I've decided enough.
Enough with the procrastination,
and the lack of self-discipline.

I think butterflies are God's sign.

It looks random doesnt it?
But I don't care.
I still don't see the bigger picture yet.
But I'm taking small steps at a time.
And eventually it'll lead me somewhere.

I really want a DSLR now.

Time to do some work.

2007-05-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

a little lost,
a little weary.
with not a script picked,
for this character yet.

its stifling,
boring,
and stupid.

Sometimes it makes me
EMBARRASSED
to be a Singaporean.

But I have to tolerate,
and pretend to enjoy it.
At least I'll learn,
and hopefully,
I'll be better at it than them.

Just trying.
to be me.

2007-05-01T13:18:00.000+08:00

I find a map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from A to where you B
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place
Where I'd find your face
My fingers in creases of distant dark places

when you're drowning in snow patrol.

no comment.

2007-04-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

I havent gone online since mon!

work's a chore but i'm trying not to dread it cos hey! its another 23 more weeks.

I'm too tired to go through the whole what im doing at work shit so i'll just say:

I wanna club!
I wanna sleep properly!
I wanna go home before 7!
I wanna see LEE MINQI HUANG XUELING DAHPUNEE KOashdgqwsfh YVETTE TEY AND HANA BANANA and many more!
I wanna stop growing fat!

I really needa sleep now.

I can't wait to reach saturday.

ARGH.

I'm the =)iest at the end of the day,
because you're always there.

2007-04-15T16:00:00.000+08:00

hope and pray and
hope and pray
some more.

crosses fingers.

I can do it
=)

Okay i can do this.

OMFG.
9am to 1am.
for a friend of mine.
At mediacorp.

I'm super sorry in advance,
my drummer girl!

2007-04-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

old habits die hard.

like the temper you flare,
when you're not sposed to,
maybe?

like the way you indulge in,
the extra thinking,
when you should be too tired to.

I should be too tired to type this.

My fault, my bad.
do you know what it feels like
to fight within yourself?

2007-04-08T17:08:00.000+08:00

So I did the most embarrassing thing.
I ran my fucking little ass off.
yes, practically sprinted away,
from the girlfriend's mother.
She saw me.

OH MY FUCKING GOD.
This is the reason why I always have a plan B.
Plan B's are safe.
Improvising is not.

Totally a duh? thing to do.
I can't get over it.
It's truly a weird thing to do.
Ah DAMMIT.
*walks into wall,
and rabidly bangs head repeatedly on it*

I forget them,
there are too many.
and sometimes,
i grow tired.
I wish they would stop.
I wish i could stop.

Just undiscovered.

2007-04-07T19:53:00.000+08:00

Well the time it takes to know someone
It all can change before you know its gone
So close your eyes and feel the way
I'm with you now believe theres nothing wrong

You think that I wanna run and hide
I'll keep it all locked up inside
I just want you to find me
I'm not lost, Im not lost, Just undiscovered

2007-04-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

Im glad we cleared it up.
And I always talk nice.
ok?

So i took it down alr
so stop complaining dearest exgf.
=)

where's my drummer girl!
drummer girl
where for art thou again?
~take a look at my girlfriend la la la
she bought me fried riceee
la la la in the middle of the night
la la la hahhaa
i am musically talentless.

2007-04-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

Lightheaded.
Makes you feel like it's ok to fall.

drummer girl,
where for art thou?

2007-03-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday SHUMIN!
You're my best defender!

The court is too fucking slippery.
It was a fucked up training today.
It felt
fucked up anyway.

I did alot of embarassing things today,
on and off the court.

165 is embarrassed of me!

But we all knowww.

That 165 runs funny.
That's why she's a goalie.

2007-03-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

I thought I had you all figured out.
You turned out the other way.

Another reason.

2007-03-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

I don't remember when I started writing my As this way-----> a.

I thought it looked nice when someone wrote it on the whiteboard in school and I've never looked back since. Besides, my small As looked like Qs without the tick at the bottom. It was gross.

You write your As this way too.
=)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I'm tired, maybe i'll cancel.
....
I think I'll cancel.
-_-

TZAMETI! POof *head blows off*

I really hope I get the scholarship.
Maybe I shld have been more enthu in CCA.
...
NAH.

Tired and random.

Bathe.
Sleep.
Eat an apple.

A hint of you here.

2007-03-26T00:18:00.000+08:00

maybe i'll feel better after showering.

I've been sitting here trying to pull it out,
but the thing is,
I can't even place my finger on it.

It's coming back stronger than before.

Suddenly,
I think I know where this all stems from.

2007-03-25T15:06:00.000+08:00

Those words you gave,
I received.

Thank you for just being.

2007-03-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

"like i told u b4..so many tings we hide frm u to protect u"

thank you for everything.
=)

2007-03-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

oh i'm sorry, I didn't know we were supposed to bring everyone along.

regrets,
you can sing about them,
but you can't
take them back.

2007-03-22T16:24:00.000+08:00

you had your fun,
now it's time to run.

take yourself out.

2007-03-20T01:23:00.000+08:00

it doesn't come easy.
but i'm willing to try.

does this make or break me?
does this make or break me?
does this make or break me?
does this make or break me?
does this make or break me?
does this make or break me?
this
make
or
break
me
?

Five to sixteen to ten to you.

2007-03-19T02:44:00.000+08:00

You know when you're running the 2.4, and you're so tired you wanna stop and just start strolling? But you keep telling yourself you can't stop, cos if you do, other people start catching up with you. One will pass and more will follow so just keep those legs moving, keep beathing keep running keep moving dont stop so no one reaches you. When someone catches up, it's just another perogative to run faster run faster run FASTER.

No one reaches you.

This is the reason why I run.

2007-03-17T00:43:00.000+08:00

i can't explain what you can't explain.

there's no more words to say,
they were lost a long time ago.

2007-03-15T11:50:00.000+08:00

i like where you are says:
sometiems when u dont say stuff
i like where you are says:
u can escape it
i like where you are says:
its liek by sharing it with someone else, ure effectively sealing its existence
i like where you are says:
u cant make it go away anymore

I think I made sense.

2007-03-15T09:34:00.000+08:00

Right.
It's 9.45am.
I woke at bloody 9am.
And cldn't go back to sleep.

Clubbing yst was pretty fun.
I've never gone clubbing with:
my da-sao.
someone who calls me hamster.
a little irritating runt of a birthday boy.
my second kor.
amongst other ppl.

But hey,
when you're high,
and you really don't give a fuck,
everything seems pretty great.
=D

St James was ok.
Wasn't fantastic.
The music was all up and down,
the crowd was pretty diverse,
but the service there,
seemed a tad better than other clubs.
A tad.
maybe cos they're new.

Birthday Boy got wasted so fast,
and I wasn't surprised.
We finished a Martell,
just got started on Hennessy,
and he was forced
a Graveyard,
a Lambo,
3 tequila shots.
Someone had to finish another 6
tequila pop for him.
Poor guy.
I wldn't celebrate my birthday with them,
they are scary ppl.
0.o

Clubbing followed by dimsum is great.
Except,
when u drink,
and overeat,
u get nauseous.
So I was pretty much that,
on the way home.
But I didn't puke yay.

And despite getting to sleep,
at only 4am plus,
I'm up now,
for God knows what reason.
I think my body's clockwork,
is totally screwed up.

I shall attempt to go back to sleep now.

Wow,
Liting the bugger,
just told me an interesting observation,
of hers.
It's funny.
AND SO NOT TRUE.
tsk tsk if she allowed it,
I wld tell u.

My mother just called my father a monkey.
At the top of her lungs.

And I wonder why I'm so strange.

2007-03-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

I guessed it,
And I hope I'm wrong.
But I think I'm right.
But I'm still hoping I'm wrong.

You know how people always say "Straight A student?"
Well I'm a "Straight B student".
Really.
Is that a good thing or bad thing?
The thing with Bs is that you're an in-between.
Never excellent,
Just mediocre.
Just there.
Just existing.
Just Bumming.
Just Breathing.

I'm just there. here. nowhere.

OK NO MORE EMO!

Music and lyrics was so cute and goooood.
I love feel-good-movies.
HALEY BENNETT.
Hot.
HUGH GRANT.
Hot.
DREW BARRYMORE.
Equals charly.
Charly = ugly + adorable + strange.

I want the soundtrack.
Me love you,
You buy for me.

http://gootube.net/way-back-into-love.php
I wanna sing this at the top of my lungs.
All I want to do is find a way back into loveeee
Cheesy moment.

2007-03-13T15:31:00.001+08:00

Good thing #1: I didn't have to wash toilets, because I cldn't find the key, I really cldn't. Thank God!

Bad thing #1: My earphones are spoilt.
Bad thing #2: I cldn't escape sweeping the huge-ass place with a broom stick twice my height.
Bad thing #3: I broke 3 glasses. I usually break none. Zilch. Zero.
Bad thing #4: I jabbed myself with a piece of glass. Accidentally of course.
Bad thing #5: Returning overdued vcds without watching one. So that's a waste of 5 bucks.

And even though it seems like more bad than good today, it feels like a good day anyway because of reasons I can't comprehend or rather, will not admit.

Thatyoumakemydaybutoh
nowimchangingsubjectand
talkingabouthowimgoingto
batheandgoout.

Alright, music and lyrics, here I come!

2007-03-12T23:51:00.000+08:00

"If you don't decide where you're going, life will decide for you."

Life has decided I will wash toilets, sweep the floors, and take out the trash tomorrow. And I don't mean my house's.

Life didn't make a very nice decision.

I don't think I want Life to decide for me anymore.

Life's a bitch.

2007-03-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

Menstrual cramps.
FUCKING HURT.
Motherfucking ccb knn.
What a bitch.
Fucking pain fucking pain fucking pain fucking pain.
Plus there's work later.

Hopefully the hormonal imbalance won't cause me to snap at anyone. I'm not that nice really.

But people like it when you're nice. They are simply, attracted to positivity. Ohh, they can be the emo ones but you have to be their sunshine! *fakes a smile*

Acting happy really helps yourself and the people around you. Even if you're not happy, you are led to believe that you truly are in bliss. If everyone would act happy, the world would be a much better place.

"all the world's a stage,
and all the men and women merely players..."

Eeeyer,
obviously this post is a result of pms.
Forgive my incumbent self.

2007-03-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

before, after and the inbetween says:
eh from ytd until now i havent bathe!
hellogoodbye says:
eh u gross sia

....
"now" was 8.53pm.

***
you pissed me a little bit,
I can't help it.

***
I can't help feeling something,
and it's not good,
because its bad bad bad bad.
beeeeeeeeeeeecause...
it's the impossible!!!!
I feel like that lame guy,
in the ou xiang ju

Go away soon please.

2007-03-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

So...
I see you, and i think to myself: "you've become a shit-assed motherfucker train wreck." Whoohoo and I'm just trying to hold on to my sanity here because...I DON'T WANNA BE YOU. Period. Eww. You prob don't know who you are.

Ugly Betty's gonna start in a few minutes and Cec's got the L word running already. (she's been scrubbing thru the episodes to satisfy her cravings and lust because she wants to watch it all at one shot when its all done. shhh...*cough*desperate!*cough* nahhh kidding) =D pls still share with me k hahaha

Without Cec there'd be no "lagoon"-ing, no long romantic walks at the beach, no Jovie (oops hahaha), no "alot of other things" so this is a thank-you to Cecilia Ho JY for being in my life.

Herstory's on thurs but ohhhh I can't go because my brother works at zouk and it'd be really awkward if he saw me there. Not exactly a dream to be caught in uncompromising positions at a club by your dearest sibling.

tv calls, so good night.

2007-02-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

I've been around the world in my chair today. I've read the thoughts of countless, and seen the world through their eyes. I've felt their anguish and despair, frustrations and sorrows, joy and exhilaration.

Maybe I've lost track of my goals. Maybe I'm still finding them.

But I think.
Maybe I've never gone off-track.
Maybe I've just taken a break.
And it's after the pit-stop,
And it's time to move on.

And I've set my sights on:

1) playing great floorball - making the nationals.

2)raising my gpa up - mediacorp's gonna have the best intern (yeah right)

You inspire me.
Self-confidence.
Not ego, but self-confidence.
Fine line.

Self-confidence needs no assurance.
Ego feeds on assurance.

Honestly, most of this entry's about floorball, or connected to it in some way. It seems that no matter how hard I try to discredit the importance of this sport in my life, it smacks me back in the head.

I don't want to sound like a desperate jock, but floorball made me live. It made me grow. It gave me something. How I fell into it, I have no idea. It started life for me.

Maybe it just found me.

And thank God for that.

Just like how charly has dance, I have floorball.
=)

2007-02-26T12:54:00.000+08:00

It doesn't feel good to be second-rate. Yet even though I strive for perfection, I don't try hard enough. Contradictory.

Frustrated.

2007-02-25T16:08:00.000+08:00

Study. the window the computer the newspaper you the magazine the food the phone sonic the hedgehog runs around get past the next level jump jump JUMP! OOps died try again next time study. you the radio tune the radio blast those speakers you ryan seacrest its AT40 food go get food dances with the floorball stick plays the curves of the floorball you study. you

Distractions aplenty,
when you need to study.

2007-02-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hey, could you stand another drink?
I'm better when I don't think
It seems to get me through
Say, d'you wanna spin another line
Like we had a good time
Not that I need proof

Swell, we're living in a hotel
Someone's ringing my bell
In a room without a view
Hey, heard you read another book
Should I take another look?
Who am I
Without you

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala...

Proof by I Am Kloot

Turns and spins,
Flicks and slaps,
Run faster, someone's catching up!
Boost burst break or make,
take
your best shot.

4-2.

They say they believe,
but I don't.
How's that going to work?

Run faster,
no one's catching up.
It's just your shadow,
you're running away from,
yourself.

i see you in me.
you are in me.
you are me.
i am you.

you won't understand.
you should stop reading.

2007-02-23T16:32:00.000+08:00

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
Cause I know that you're living a lie.

yesshuminiliketotypelikethat,
whyareyoustillreadingthis?BODOH.

2007-02-22T20:28:00.000+08:00

Do not get me wrong
I cannot wait for you to come home
For now you're not here
and I'm not there,
it's like we're on our own

To figure it out,
consider how to find a place to stand
Instead of walking away
and instead of nowhere to land

This is going to break me clean in two
This is going to bring me close to you

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed
Who are you?

My heart went out to ***,
when I saw her the other day,
because I know how it felt like.
Mistakes made,
regrets come.
But.
No one should have to go through,
that.
I hope you'll find
your happiness.
Yours,
that no one will be able to take away.

Today was not a bad day.
Got to see AH MIN finally.
And uhhh earned...
30 cents.
Not bad....(like BORAT now...) NAWWWT!

But I'm in the midst of doing something,
out of cowardice,
and I don't like it at all.
I'm so sorry,
that I've let you down again.
I'm really not worth it, trust me.

I thank God for having someone,
that inspired me to be more than I am today.
Spurring me to be successful.
If you're reading this,
I'd still want your friendship.
And hopefully I'm a better person,
cos of it.

Thank you.

A couple of days back,
in the midst of drugged sleep,
someone was right there beside me.
It felt real and raw and honest.
I felt connected.
But I can't remember now.

The bad thing about having a dream,
is forgetting it.
It's on the tip of your tongue,
but you can't pull it out of your memory.

The worst part,
is getting it replaced.
Your sanity, your brain, your thoughts,
tarnish it almost immediately.
the faces change,
to someone you imagine,
to someone you know.
The voice,
the actions,
the names,
the Everything.

Until what you get is simply,
a creative imagination.
A wreck of stumbling thoughts.

A car crash of a beautiful dream.

I can't remember you.
I can't remember what happened.
I know details, but only in words,
not in thoughts.

I had you,
for what seemed like time that stood still,
but merely five minutes no more.
I had you,
but I can't remember now.

Do you know what that feels like?

It feels like I lost you,
even before I knew you.

I know what that feels like now.
Who are you?

2007-02-20T07:39:00.000+08:00

It's after-clubbing, and I swear I'm not wasted.
Really.

Sitting on bus rides alone in the morning, with the after-effects of alcohol consumption, helped me to reflect. And I realised, hey im running away from everything! Now, it's fine to be an escapist every once in a while, but at the rate i'm going, hell, i'd watch the world go by and still be in a stupor when I die.

Here's some facts.

Fact #1:
Will be selling the house soon because we're broke. And where will we stay? We will rent says brillant Dad.

Wonderful!

Fact #2:
I have no money to study anymore! And how will I get by? I will work my ass off, in studies or literally, to get a scholarship or pay the fees myself.

Terrific!

Fact #3:
It's a secret that hmmm only 3 people know, and 2 of them knew by accident. Oh wait now its 5 people who know.

Whee!

Here's a sub-fact #3:
I can't do it.
Heart over mind rules eventually.
Ambition, drive, spunk.
But different.
And I can't force it.
So...
goodbye, soon.
But thank you,
in more ways than one.

Exams are coming up and I still havent started. Great.

I'M SO TIRED!
really.

Butahfucknevermindistill
gottakeeplivingandthatsucks
andwillsuckforeverandwhatare
youdoingtryingtodecodethis
yougotalotoffreetimeahgostudy.

2007-02-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

Different.
Maybe too different.
I hesitate,
to not err.

2007-02-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

So it's been about a month since the last posting and I certainly hope that everyone thinks this blog is shut down so I can blog covertly.

It's about 5 mins after valentine's day, and I wont say how I spent it. People have ways of finding out even if you don't tell them anything anyway.

In regards to relationships, you once said that a broken glass cannot be mended to the way it was before. I was defiant and disagreed. Well, you're right, I admit that now.

For me, the difficulty in trusting another human being is so immense. But you gained it in the end.

You chose to break that trust, time and time again, slowly. And stage by stage it deteriorated.

My trust in you was like that glass. And now it is broken.
It can't ever be the same.
I was naive to think that it could.

For all the times you made me the happiest.
You also possessed the power to make me feel the lousiest.

For all the sweet little gestures that lifted my spirits.
There were also the ones which hurt the most.

For all the promises you fulfilled.
There were more that you did not.

For the times when you said you loved me.
There were the times your actions proved otherwise.

For all the lovely memories that you brought me.
There were the nightmares that remained.

You were both my greatest love and darkest fear.

Today you gave me a Hallmark.
It said the most beautiful things...

That I wish I could believe.

I simply don't trust you anymore.
Simplified.
You hurt too fucking much.
Because I loved you too much.

2007-01-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

This is how I disappear.

2007-01-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

well.
I AM upset about today.
I don't know why,
I just didnt have last week's
"i dunno what".
confidence or speech wadeva.

Disappointed with myself.
A little angry too.
But Isaac did a great job,
total natural dude.
He's just got that XXXXX factor.
=)

And thanks again to hana for the dress,
and minqi and yvette for the makeup.
Awesomes.
=)

And whoohoo mediacorp.
I'm not sure what im feeling abt that now.
But if i really want it,
i know who im up against already,
and its definitely not easy.
AT ALL.
=(

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.

2007-01-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHH!
Im so pissed and anxious about my SIP.
"I sent you SOMEWHERE right?"
ARGHHHH!
'SOMEWHERE' IS NOT GOOD!
And I don't have any emails.
Soooo.

I think i'll get sent to like
Sembwaste corp.
And become a cleaner.

OH GOD.
I don't want!

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck